Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Tmr's competition yet i'm not doing anything to it. NOT even running. can just die. really. can we win?? this is the question. we're playing against SSS (Singapore Sports School) tmr. WHOA!! some say we can. some say dunno. i say i'll hope so. HAHAHA.

being feeling very irritated this few days. cuz of who?? the women in my house. something must have gone wrong. SO wrong that she kept venting her anger on us. or rather, me. like fuck. what's her problem seriously. she's the one that keep complaining about me not having a phone that cause so much trouble for her to reach me. NOW i subscribe a line on my own. SHE compaint that i can handle my own bill. FUCK la. tell me what you want now?? what MUST i do to satisfy you?? you want me out of the house isit?? i wont clean the house, cause i dont find it dirty AT ALL. as simple as that. even if you find it dirty, i still wont. know why?? cuza i dont know what's your defination of CLEAN. so what's the point when no matter how many times i clean. you'll still find it dirty?? agree?? and please dont blame me for having so much activities during this holiday. cuz it's not like i want it. it's not like i dont want to have fun to go out and stuff. GET IT RIGHT!! and one more thing. i'm already very stress about the performance. all the rehearsals and stuff. so if you say that your trying to be an understanding mum. this is a chance for you. STOP REMINDING ME ABOUT REHEARSALS EVERY MINUTE. sometimes is not that i want to give you attitude. it is the way you KEPT talking about it. how many times are you intending to repeat may i know?? this is damn FUCK. serious. alright. chill

know what?? i cant go malaysia. why? cuz almost everyday of my holiday. i'm havign something on. rehearsals, training, chalet, competitions, tuitions and performance. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!! damn packed. so it's not really a holiday that i'm looking forward to. but i hope i'll be able to look at it the positive way still. =))

and now. i have to hide this feeling that i'm dying to reveal. i know she's trying to get something out of me. BUT i'm sorry dear. i can't. i have to be selfish for now. and i wont let you have what you want till the time is right. all the pain that your going through. i'm going double. so don't jix. HAHAHAHAHAHA. and please stop saying that she's cute. it is irritating me. i know this is what you wan. but i wont show it to you. i dont wanna lose in this game AGAIN!! =))

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